Pregnant With the Vampire's Child (MxM/ Mpreg).

chapter 21.

Julian's POV.

I miss him

We miss him so much, I can't believe how much I miss ulric yet I am the one who chased him away. Three damn weeks without seeing him and I can't believe how much I miss him. I really want to see him at least to look in those intense eyes of his. I should have told him the truth, I should have made everything clear to him but the silly me thought I can live without him. I know he comes to my house coz every now and then I find bottles of blood in my fridge which shows that he comes at my apartment though I don't know where he passes coz I was serious when I said of changing the locks, which I did.

Why am I even surprised, he is a vampire, nothing can stop him from doing anything he wants though I want him to act stubborn and come and see me or more talk to me ok he had been calling me or coming to my work place but he stopped. I really want to  him so badly, at least to touch him even though it's for a second it will be enough. I can't believe how much I want ulric by my side in that I feel my body ache wanting him to touch me. I crave his cold hands all over me, I want to feel his cold soft lips on mine.

What confuses me was how ulric makes me feel this way. The things he makes me feel I have never felt them before, I spent ten fuckin years with Dario and I never felt like this with him. I always thought that it would be hard to forget him but in just weeks I had forgotten him like he never happened, like he never exited in the first place.

I always thought that Dario was the only man for me whom I will love for ever but the things I feel for ulric are too much to ignore.  I think it's because I am pregnant with his child that's why I feel like this but deep inside my heart I know what I feel for the vampire.

I fall for him!

I can't deny it and the craving to feel him is so much stronger than me. I rubbed my temples in frustration picking up my phone so that I can call him but I don't want too, my pride is too much, something inside of me tells me not to yet the other side of me tells me to call him. This had been happening in the past days wanting to call him but I end up changing my mind to not too. I don't want him to think that I want him or so that I miss him that will boost his ego, which I don't want. And the other thing is, he was getting married which was the main reason why I have to forget about him and know that the only thing we have in common is our baby nothing more.

Just thinking that he was someone's else's hurts me so much. I want him to be mine but that can't happen, I was late to meet him. He had met with somebody else and that's not me. I have to respect that though the desire was too much.

I sighed deeply throwing my phone on the table as I stood up to go check my baby's room which I painted yesterday. I bought everything my baby would need before I become weak yet I have to do everything by myself,so,I thought this would be a good time to shop. I painted the room purple since I don't know the baby's gender, doctor Wells' mother is fine now, he called me a week ago telling me to go see him. But, I don't what him to check on me since you know I am carrying a baby vampire, he will freak out when he sees what it's inside me so I think it will better to know the gender on the day I give birth to this wonderful baby of mine and he knows that I decided to keep the baby.

" Go, see him" someone whispered as I swing around to see who it was and no one was there obviously. This was happening so often now days  or is it because I am always a lone and I hear things. But, it's getting out of control, I think it's me always talking to myself. I started to place everything in  the baby's closet when I saw that the wall had dried not minding the voice which obviously was me. I placed everything inorder the way I want it to be. I am doing all of this because I know when this belly gets much bigger I won't be able to do all of this,this was the perfect time to prepare for their arrival.